I’ve discovered the secret to writer’s block. Not how to overcome it…how to get it. It’s easier than you think. I just had to make one small change to what I was doing.
When I started writing my blog over 2 years ago, I couldn’t contain myself. I was an open hydrant, the words were water. Today, writing feels more like a mirage in the desert. I feel like I see something and as soon as I run toward it, it disappears.
So what caused this block? This dwindling of inspiration? This funk? It was one thing.
When I made the decision to leave my day job for my dream job, I had a plan. My dream job is only part time which was actually supposed to be a blessing. With the additional free time, I could focus on my writing. The idea was to use the time to generate freelance gigs and maybe even a book deal.
Fast forward 10 months and I’ve all but lost my love for writing. I feel like all my ideas have dried up. I pretty much hate everything that I write. To make things worse, I received the first rejection to my book proposal. (It actually wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be but it wasn’t awesome either.) Oh and guess what…my writing has generated ZERO DOLLARS.
Once I began writing with the agenda of making money, everything changed. I felt tremendous pressure to be creative. My writing wasn’t just about sharing from my heart, it was about getting noticed. I needed people to think my words were worth money. And that is when my writer’s block came in full force.
Before this, I didn’t have a grid for writer’s block. I would have some mornings where it didn’t flow but I wouldn’t call that writer’s block. It was mostly a lack of focus. The idea faucet stayed on. Those days feel a million years away.
I’m still figuring out where to go from here. I just know something has to change. And maybe when I get back to where I need to be, this mirage of words will turn into an oasis.